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CALIF

 

 

By

 

 

 DERRICK L. HAWKINS

 

 

 

 

    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHAPTER ONE

 

 

 

 

    

     “Fucking Marines,” Emperor Sol the Fifteenth grimaced. Thirteen ships of the line left gutted, almost literally stripped to the frame, crews put out in life pods while those vile creatures looted and pillaged the empires hard work. He forced his fingers to relax on the kindle even though there was no way to damage one that he knew of. Save his strength for things he could do something about.

“How many this time.” He spoke to the large robed figure that slipped into the room behind him. Inquisitor General Kalmar was his most trusted aide but the man still gave him the shivers sometimes. The dark eyes, bald pate with the lights of his enhancements flickering gave him an otherworldly aura.

          “Thirty three are unaccounted for and presumed to have gone over to the other side.” Kalmar stood the proscribed distance behind and to his left but not at the required position of attention. Sol smoothed the frown from his face with a soft sigh, after so many years the man was entitled to some liberties, as long as he did not take them too far.

     “Have we been able to find any relatives, friends?” He already knew the answer. The Marines planned their strikes with precision and careful planning with not a lot of wiggle room. They would have already collected all ties to keep them from being used against them.

“Despite knowing what to look for we were unable to get to them in time. A brilliant misdirection if I-“

“You may not say so. You said you could squash these bugs in a few years Kalmar.”

“Every attempt has been and is being made my lord. Unfortunately every successful incursion into the empires affairs makes them that much more the hero.”

“It probably doesn’t help our cause that they go out of their way not to kill anyone,” Sol muttered.

“Whereas our forces are not as selective.” Sol glared at the taller man in the reflection of the armorplas.

“I’ll give you that,” he agreed reluctantly. “The empire cannot be seen as weak, Kalmar. You of all people should know this.” He got the nod he expected. “Now tell me of this replacement for my fleet commander.”

      “Captain Dyvid Westy. From a loyal, if not notable, EAF(Army)family. The private first came to notice taking command of a destroyer when the bridge crew was killed in the Marines exodus eleven years ago.”

“I assume that since he is now a captain that went well?”

“He is credited with the destruction of five enemy ships with his own barely operable.”

“And the reason I’m just now hearing about him?”

“He was promoted to second lieutenant and placed in command of the ship-“

“Serious?” Sols eyebrows rose in surprise. “A boot in charge of a ship of the line?”

“It was expected, I can only assume, that command expected him to fail. To that end he was exiled to the Third Revenue Enforcement Service.”

     “Nothing like being punished for out-performing your superiors,” Sol chuckled.

“Unfortunately for them he turned the Third into a feared unit. He has a long list of successful raids against both pirates and Marines. His intel has helped other forces bring thousands of Marines to justice.”

     “Discipline?”

“He runs a tight fleet-“

“Fleet? Since when does a single destroyer constitute a fleet?”

“Fleet command occasionally lets him have a ship or two that is scheduled for the scrap yards. Generally, he simply confiscates pirate and Marine ships as they come along. At last count he had thirteen but as high as thirty.”

“Loyalty?”

“To you? Total.”

“That too but I mean his men. How far into deaths lair would they follow him?”

“They’ve been well into the lobby several times,” Kalmar assured him with a tight smile. “Integrating them into the new fleet would buoy those that may be disheartened.”

     Sol called up a screen on his kindle that looked into a cell deep in the bowels of the emperial palace on Earth. The former commander of his new fleet was stubborn and well trained to resist interrogation but even the stoutest man wilted when his family was put to the same methods. Surprisingly the man only caved after his youngest daughter was gang raped. He keyed in the order. In another five minutes the signal would reach its destination and soon after the traitor would be introduced to the recyclers. Good riddance.

     “I’d like to see my newest commander before I send him out.” Kalmar’s expression went vacant for a moment as he accessed the network and sent the order.

“He should be here within the week.”

     Sol reached down to rub the head of one the Rottweiler’s he kept with him but remembered he'd left them on Earth as too conspicuous for traveling incognito. As much as the best known and feared face in Sol space could. The Rotties were his true friends, they wouldn't turn on him. Inquisitor Kalmar was a Rottie in human form, vicious and loyal but he never let it slip his mind that the man had his own goals not even the Emperor was privy too. He'd have to do something about that upon his return.

     “A penny for your thoughts your highness?” He turned fully to the Inquisitor and leaned against the armorplas port.

     Inquisitors were first designed by Emperor Sol the Seventh as his personal bodyguards. They were specially designed with mental abilities that allowed them to make the best use of the hardware nano-grown into their bodies. Not everyone could handle those kinds of changes; there was a substantial failure rate even among Inquisitors who have made it through the incubation and training. Each death natural or man-made was several million credits gone to waste. Unfortunately the once secret cloning facility had undergone a change in ownership when the SyHu's commandeered it fifteen years ago, rather than go all out he simply directed Kalmar to make sure they had eyes and ears. So far so good.

     All Inquisitors were gene engineered to be at least six feet tall, Kalmar was six feet nine, not unheard of in this day and age where families had their genes engineered for whatever qualities they desired. But with ship space at a premium there was no need to have a crew six feet plus when average had a better fit. Kalmar was a large man, muscular by his own rights and probably the single most dangerous man in the empire as far as Sol was concerned. Those types of people Sol did his best to eradicate before they became a problem. Kalmar would be a challenge since it was he the empire went to take care others. Might be best to have him as far away from the upcoming trouble as he could, deal with it when he returned. By then there would be some one to take his place.

     “The fleet is prepared to depart Kalmar?” He made a show of looking at the kindle. “Have you seen these reports?”

     “It is,” the large man was at his side in the blink of an eye. Sol looked up in annoyance. “I’ve seen the reports. As usual Sector Governor Talbot appears to be on the warpath.”

     “I think its time there was a new Belts governor. Production has been on a steady slide while the number of pirate outposts in his area has risen the same amount. If I didn't know any better I'd say Talbot is in bed with the enemy.”

     “He’s complaining hard about captain Westy’s invasion of his territory. Obviously he has something to hide.” Kalmar gestured at the kindle in Sols hand, the screen flickered and Commander Westy's file came up.

     “You think he's mature enough for this kind of responsibility?” Sol scrolled thru the file noting all the complaints lodged against the man, lately from Talbot and those under his command, and the long string of successes. “Looks like the good captain has had some help.” He frowned at the inquisitor, some of the exploits listed he could hardly believe had been accomplished with the resources of the Third RES. The entire Third should've been sent to the scrappers decades ago, personnel and all. Fortunately it was a convenient place to send undesirables to keep them out of the way of progress. Lieutenant Commander Zant for one.

     “Lieutenant Commander Zant. Now there’s a man who deserves to spend the rest of his career in the farthest outpost we have. How do they get along?”

“My sources say its strained at the best of times. Zants applied for ten transfers since Westy took command; all refused of course, no one wants Zants’ stench on their command.”

     “You’d think the man would be grateful to be part of something good. By the time you return the empire will be cleansed of people like him.”

“Back?”

“I’ve decided to send you along with the fleet, Kalmar. I need eyes and ears and a steady hand.”

     “I’m sure you have plenty of those in various-“

“This is not a discussion, Inquistor General. Be prepared to depart with the fleet when Westy arrives.” Kalmar gave an abrupt bow and floated out without so much as a by your leave.

 

Third Revenue Enforcement Service

Commander Westy. Dragons Breath

 

     Commander Dyvid Westy was bored. He slouched unprofessionally in the captains chair while the quiet work of the ship went on around him. He had them on a dull patrol route previously cleansed of pirates and other traitors to the empire to give them an easy go of it after three grueling months clearing out pirates nests in the Belts Sector. And constantly doing end runs around that sectors governor and the rest of the bureaucrats who were making a mighty fine profit from catering to the very people they were suppose to be eradicating. Still, he sighed, governor Talbot was a powerful if annoying man, his sector supplied over half of the materials the emperor required to build ships. No doubt his report to the emperor wasn't going to be glowing. He didn't dare think just because there wasn't any word in the last two weeks that he forgot to complain.

     Besides adding another crossed out pirates graphic on the hull he added five former pirate vessels to his ragtag fleet of obsoletes bringing the grand total to seventeen. Let every one spread out from close quarters a little bit. He for one could use it. He should've posted his exec to one of the ships-too late now.

     Every one except lieutenant commander Zant considered this a posting that signaled the end of their career. Most made the best of things since it beat hell out of simmering in one of the emperors gene-tanks. Zant was still under the impression that those glowing fitreps were a true glimpse into the man that was him. They were at odds for a number of reasons the least being Dyvid wrote honest fitreps.   

     Zant had extraordinary skill in avoiding the heavy lifting while making it seem like he was doing it all by himself. Maybe now that the Third had a name people wanted to be associated with they all might have a slim chance at decent postings. Or maybe the emperor would send them to the recyclers, ships, crew and all and start over fresh.

     “Hopefully I'm not stabbing us all in the foot,” he chuckled out loud. “Just thinking how nice it'd be to have a ship that works most of the time,” he answered Zants questioning look.

     “I second that. People are putting in requests to move to one of the new ships in droves. They might be lowlifes but their equipment is first rate. And in case you hadn't noticed, the main viewer is down for good. We might be able to hack out some repairs from one of the other ships.”

     “I had wondered about that but I was too comfortable to ask. You know, I've been thinking about splitting the fleet. Eight and eight with an overall  command ship. I think its time you had a couple of ships under your direct command. Give you something to do besides hassle people about your fiancée.”

     “Well, I finally made some headway in that,” Zant jumped on the subject like a lifesaver. “One of my contacts finally came thru,” he paused for dramatic affect. Dyvid put on his 'I'm the interested boss' expression. “Turns out she's among those people that got caught up thirteen years ago when the Marines went rogue.”

     “Son of a bitch.” This was the most interesting thing Zant had ever said about his fiancée “That means she got dragged off to the Calif System with them. I can only imagine what kind of barbaric things they've done to her and all the other hostages.”

     “I can imagine,” Zant shivered. “And I don't like it. Unfortunately there's nothing I can do about it.”   “The only thing you can do is rid this system of the scourge.” He waved a waiting comtec over.

     “Sir, com from headquarters,” he handed him the stik and stepped smartly back. Westy looked at the personalized design on the cylinder that showed the messages origination. He sat up from his slouched position abruptly with a sharp curse. Zant mumbled a what now.

     “Is this right?” The tec nodded somberly. “Thank you, I'll read it right here.” He slipped the small cylinder into the chairs data slot and entered his private code to unlock the message.

     The image of the Inquisitor General himself dissolved onto the small screen. For some reason his pleased look scared Westy more than a scowl would have. He instinctively sat straighter as if the bald imposing figure could see him. You never knew with Inquisitors, especially this one.

     “Commander Westy you are directed to these coordinates at best possible speed. Message ends.” The stiks colors swirled and settled to bright white to signify its contents had been erased.

     “Get right to the point why don't you.” He keyed the coordinates into his console. “Helm plot a course for these coordinates. Best speed.” The comtec acknowledged the order as well and notified the rest of the fleet of their new destination.

     “I don't recognize those coordinates,” Lieutenant Commander Zant checked them on his own board. “Its going to take us at least two weeks with those ships in tow.”

     “Then that's the best possible speed. Personally I'm in no hurry to be any where near Inquisitors ” he said loud enough for whoever hadn't been whispered to by now. It wasn't usually a good thing to be summoned by the emperors right hand man.

     “He looked like he was in a good mood if that's any indication of anything.” Westy chuckled.

     “That's probably because we've been ordered to the recyclers,” Zant sighed. “The emperor finally got tired of all the complaints you've generated over the years.” He looked at Westy. “On the other hand it'd be nice to finally have some ships up to date- at least more recent than these relics. Any hint what he wants us for?”

     “No doubt the debacle with Sector governor Talbot has finally reached the highest levels,” he chuckled softly. “But, I think the rest of the fleet is in the clear mister Zant. I gave the orders. You, however may be standing beside me on the carpet as my second.” He thoroughly enjoyed the panic on Zants face.

     “Be that as it may sir? Perhaps now you'll listen to me when I speak about annoying people we need to be friends with. Considering the condition of the Third and the availability of parts-”

     “We can get parts and pieces from the pirates. They seem to have a better supply chain than the empire, certainly better than we get. Hell we've confiscated ships from them. We don't need some annoying fat ass sector governors supplies. If I were you I wouldn't stand too long in his corner. We found enough pirates operating unchecked in his sector that it wouldn't surprise me if he's standing next to us.”

     “You have made quite a lot of enemies in your time  Dyvid. Maybe its finally caught up to you.” His expression said he was praying hard. It was going to be a long two weeks.

 

     Sleep wasn't coming, he was anxious to get the days events over and done with. He never was good at waiting for punishment. He looked over at the time, they were do at the IG's coordinates in the next few hours, may as well get a start on the day.

     He rolled out of bed, gave some thought to his best uniform then went with the everyday one. He was a soldier and he'd look like it even on his death march.

Lieutenant commander Zant had the down shift, he always had on a sharply creased uniform, somehow he never managed to get it dirty no matter what was going on.

     “Anything interesting to report?” He settled into his chair and logged into the system. “This is the day of reckoning, Zant. Are you up to it?” He knew the man wasn't by the stressed look he had on his face the last two weeks. The closer they got the greener he seemed to get.

     “The viewers fixed, who knows how long that’s going to last, all the back ends scrapped out. Nothing that needs your attention. Just a few scrapes, every ones nervous to be getting close to the emperor. You never know what he knows about you.”

     “You can bet your ass if he doesn't know it there's an inquisitor nearby happy to give him any particulars. Whats in your closet, Zant? Anything else I need to worry about?”

     “I've performed my duties admirably. I have nothing to fear.”

     “Your face says other wise. Commander Zant, I relieve you,” he said formally. The ships ancient AI transferred command systems to Dyvid and brought up the illumination and systems for the day shift.

     Zant put his boards in standby and stepped from the dais, “We're a few hours a head of schedule. We'll be arriving within an hour-”

     “Sir, sensors are picking up a ship on approach,” the sensor-tec broke in. Westy swiveled his chair to face the man. “The configuration isn't in our database and their coming in hot.”

     “Red alert, all hands to battle stations!” Westy swiveled his chair back and locked it in place. All over the bridge others secured their own chairs for combat. “Weapons?”

     “At your command, sir.”

     “Well, lets see if they're willing to talk. Open a ch-”

     “This is Captain T'Shan of the Razorfist. This is a restricted area. State your business or be destroyed.” Westy and Zant exchanged glances.

     “Sir, I'm detecting more ships-” The sensor-tec snapped.

     “How many?” Zant asked.

     “Fifty eight.”

     “Seems the odds are in Captain T'Shans favor,” Dyvid sighed. “This is Commander Dyvid of the Third Revenue Enforcement Service ship Dragons Breath.”

     “Please proceed. Any deviations will be destroyed.”

     “Thank you Captain T'Shan. May I inquire about your ship?”

     “Yes.” The channel closed.

     “She needs some work on her conversation skills,” Dyvid muttered. “Helm pass the word and tuck us in behind her.” On the screen Razorfist wheeled around gracefully and began picking up speed.

     “What class do you reckon that is commander?”

     “We've been out so long I wouldn't begin to hazard a guess, sir.” Zant typed rapid-fire at his console trying to come up with something but gave up after a few minutes with a shrug.

     “Lets just hope they stay on our side,” Dyvid worked his own console. “That one ship outguns three-quarters of our fleet. She'd barely break a sweat putting us out of our misery.”

     Razorfist set a leisurely pace, sensors didn't show any other RES ships but he knew that could change at any moment so he set his fleet to making ready for the inevitable inspections. He dreaded inspections the desk jockeys used to justify their continued existence. They were so damn nit-picky, even with the stack of operational fitness waivers, maybe especially.

     “Maybe we're finally getting new ships,” Zant sighed. “I bet this is one of the emperors secret yards. He has them all over the system you know.”

     “I'd be surprised if we're allowed to keep our captures. Some higher echelon barnacles will end up confiscating them for official use.” Dyvid made an easy-come-easy-go gesture.

     “I can just hear the tall tales now about how they wrested the ships from the biggest meanest two hundred pirates and Marines there ever was.”

     “Do I detect some animosity mister Zant? That's very unlike you.” Dyvid chuckled.

     “I'm like every other fighting man, sir. I hate uptight self-important desk riders who take credit for others hard work.” He was so intent on his rant that he didn't notice the looks of disbelief on most faces.

     “Be that as it may we still have to be on our best behavior.”

 

     “What? I'm going where?” Selby stared slack jawed at her uncle not sure she just heard what she thought she just heard.

     “I'm sending you with the RazorFist to the Calif system. I need a representative.”

     “All those ships and people and you don't have any one to represent you?” She squalled. She hopped out of her seat and began pacing swiftly. “I have a life here, uncle, in case you hadn't noticed? Me and Sparm are engaged!” Sparm was her third love interest, she was looking serious about this one though.

     “I've noticed and I have a bit of bad news for you in that regard.” he cleared his throat and spoke quick. “Lieutenant Sparm-” He didn't have the heart to tell her he'd been implicated in the sabotage of the fleet and subsequently given to the genetecs. He really should have at least given her the evidence, he mightn't let the young man off with exile in a solo-ship headed out-system. But he didn't and had to cover his actions with another elaborate lie. He really shouldn't give a care but he was very fond of his only niece.

     “I had to promote him into a vacant slot. You know how fond I was of him, Selby. He had the skills I needed so I used him. Don't look at me like that. The needs of the empire always come before the needs of the individual. You know that.”

     “I know,” she sighed. “But, I really liked him.”

     “I know you did, sweetie,” and therein lie the problem. “He promised to keep in touch. After he works out the issues the previous commander couldn't.” Her eyes lit up.

     “You made him a commander?” She leaped into his arms. “Thank you uncle Sol!”

     “I do what I can favorite niece.”

     “I'm your only niece unless there's something your not telling me?” She stood back with fists on hips.    “Your the only one, still. But, down to business. I want you to keep an eye on Essie.”

     “I know there was a catch.” She smiled “Why didn't you just say that in the first place? Of course I'll keep an eye on him. I do that anyway. Have you told him?”

     “He's not talking to me. As usual.”

     “No wonder with all the stuff you have him doing to 'prepare him for his destiny',” she intoned with a deep voice that made him smile.

     “He has to be ready, Selby.”

     “I know, uncle. I'll let him know. You know him he probably already knows. If he's learned anything from you its how to 'cultivate sources'.” She laughed at his stern expression. “How long do we have until you ship us off?”

     “Razorfists new commander is enroute-say five hours?” She gave him a pout and gently shoved him out the door complaining about all the things she had to pack in the amount of time he gave her.

     “That went well,” Sol whispered to his bodyguard who'd personally escorted the understandably reluctant  lieutenant to the stations genetics. “Lets pray she never finds out.”

     “I'm not much for prayer, sir.” The man said with all seriousness. “My parents are Scientholics,” he said as if that was all the explanation required. He wasn't the brightest but he was trustworthy with some of the touchier things he needed done around the empire.

     “Sir, commander Westy has arrived.” His gaze vacant as he accessed the information on his VIOD.

     “Excellent. I'll meet them in the landing bay.” The man relayed the message and fell in half a step behind him.

     Commander Westy wasn't what Sol was expecting even after reading the mans file. He was perfectly ordinary, once he left you'd be hard pressed to remember he was even there. That was the makings of the perfect spy. Maybe after he returned from Calif he'd have a new job for him. He ignored lieutenant commander Zant and stopped in front of Westy.

     “Commander Westy,” Sol nodded perfunctorily at the commanders deep bow. “I know you were expecting Inquisitor general Kalmar, sorry to disappoint you,” he tried a disarming smile. Westy nodded nervously but didn't return the smile.

     “The request was sent on my behalf. Your fleet has been out of range for quite a while, if you'll forgive me for getting right down to business?”

     “Of course, your highness,” Westy tried to stay the proscribed full step behind him but Sol pulled him even with him and put his arm around his shoulder like old friends reunited. The guards smoothly prevented Zant from joining his commander.

     “I have a mission for you commander Westy. A very sensitive and of utmost importance to the empire. You and the Third have exhibited some exceptional strategic prowess in dealing with the pirates and the Marines, that's the kind of thing I need for this. Can I count on you?”

     “I'm honored, your highness. And speechless. What's the nature of the mission, my lord?”

     “Ah,” he clapped him roughly on the back, “I like a commander who doesn't jump in unprepared! Most of my other commanders would've agreed without knowing any of the details. That just proves I've picked the right man for the job.”

     “Thank you sir, whatever it is you require I'll try not to disappoint you.”

     “See that you don't.” He softened the threat with a grin. “But you might not thank me after you hear what it is.”

     Commander Westy and lieutenant commander Zant listened intently as Emperor Sol outlined what he wanted done. Westy was all smiles while Zant seemed to have reservations about most of it.

     “That's quite a bit of responsibility for the Third, sir. There has to be any number of fleets better equipped to handle that sort of mission.” Westy leaned back in his chair running a hand thru his hair.

     “Your royal and august highness,” Zant said full of authority into the silence, “even if we were to undertake such a mission none of the Third is equipped with String Drives. Even with them a trip that long is ten years subjective time, two years ship-”

     “I am aware of the math, lieutenant commander Zant,” Sol said dangerously. He locked eyes with the man until Zant looked away. “I have a solution to that problem, captain Westy. Westy's head snapped up.

     “It just so happens that the flagship Razorfist is in need of a captain. I can't think of any one more qualified to command her than you. Congratulations.”

     “I'm speechless, your highness.” He lapsed into silence.

     “Who's to take command of the Third?” Zant straightened noticeably.

     “I'll leave that decision in the hands of Captain Westy. Effective immediately the Third Fleet of the Revenue Enforcement Service is attached to the First Army Expeditionary Force. I'm sure Captain Westy will do whats best for the Third.” As he stood the stations AI was sending out the orders. He put out his hand to Westy.

     “Well, Captain Westy, your ship awaits. I've gathered the finest people of all disciplines to staff the fleet, I expect you to make sure their ready when they reach Calif.”

     “I'll give the fleet commander whatever assistance he requires.”

     “I'm sure that you will,” Sol chuckled softly.

 

     “I'm not sure I liked the smile on his face as we left,” Zant whispered as they left the emperor and his people behind on their way back to the shuttle bay. “I especially don't like he left the Third hanging in limbo like that.”

     “He attached us to the fleet, that's not exactly in limbo Ulysis.”

     “He attached us to the fleet, your the captain of Razorfist and not even in our chain of command anymore.”

     “Actually,” Dyvid grinned, “he did say he was leaving the disposition of the Third in my hands. If that’s not putting me in the chain of command I don't know what would.”

     “So, who's going to be the new commander? Some one who's been with the fleet for some time I would hope.”

     “Despite the emperors edict having the word of law, he's not going to be with us on the mission. I don't want to get started on the wrong foot with fleet commander by appointing a replacement without at least his consent.” He touched Zant on the arm lightly, “don't worry though, your the first one on the list. You've been waiting long enough.”

     They paused next to the obsolete shuttle from Dragons Breath to shake hands and wish each other good luck.

     “Captain Westy,” a black woman with captains rank approached them. He was momentarily taken aback by her lack of hair when baldness had been eradicated centuries ago. “Congratulations on your appointment, I'm-”

     “Captain T'Shan. I recognize the voice.” He looked at her rank pinned to her ample bosom then back up to her face hoping his face wasn't as red as it felt. “Um-”

     “I've been directed to escort you to your new command, our shuttle is over there,” she hooked a thumb over he shoulder at a dangerous looking flat black shuttle with guards at both open hatches while station personnel loaded last minute supplies.

     “God speed, captain Westy,” Zant shook his hand then stepped into his shuttle where the pilot was beginning pref-light checks.

     “Captain,” T'Shan turned smartly and headed for the shuttle. Westy hurried to keep pace with her. “Inquisitor General Kalmar speaks highly of you, he's not one to give his blessing lightly.”

     “From what I've heard he's not the kind to give any blessing.”

     “He has his moments but he's human just like the rest of us.” She chuckled, “Mostly anyway.” She waited for him to proceed her into the shuttle then spent a few moments talking to the guard.

     He passed through the airlock, none of his shuttles had airlocks they were so old, every body had to suit up if even one person was going into vacuum.   The interior was spacious compared to what he was use to, the miracle of modern nanotechnology shrank a lot of components that other wise would have encroached. The results were mostly smooth bulkheads of metal and plastic. The auto-doc area was hard and unforgiving, and a lot smaller than he was use to but then only one of his shuttles even had one (and he confiscated that one from pirates) but at least it looked up to date and had a door to seal it off from the rest of the shuttle.

     “We're ready to go,” T'Shan came in with the guard plus several more he hadn't noticed. “Any last minute issues? Your pretty much ass out if you have any special supplies you want.”

     “No thank you, I'm good,” he made to sit in one of the chairs but she waved him to the cockpit. She sat in the co-pilots seat and swiveled to face him. He took the pilots seat and looked over the board.

     Most shuttles were laid out the same way in the cockpit even if some of the controls were smaller or touch instead of toggles and switches and levers. He was surprised that a newer model shuttle still had positive feel controls. He preferred to know when he pressed a button without having to look at it.

     “I haven't been checked out in the newer models.”

     “Then I suggest you not run into anything,” she turned to her own board and started the pref-light.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHAPTER TWO

 

 

 

 

 

     “Come on Essie, the ships going to leave without us!” She tugged his arm to pull him to his feet. He was a handsome young man but couldn't keep a girlfriend for more than a couple of weeks before his bad attitude and lack of motivation ran them off. Then there was always the ever present fear of the emperor looming over any relationship either of them had. He had the bad habit of culling the herd and not being subtle about it.

     Emperor Sol the sixteenth was eighteen years old just a month ago, five feet eleven, the shortest would-be ruler by a good five inches, he had a good build only because his father insisted on a rigorous exercise routine of martial arts and physical fitness training to round out the ten hours a day of education in everything he might need in order to rule the empire. He was a reluctant student at best but absorbed every detail of every lesson while pretending not to. Needless to say he got on every body's nerves in the worst way.

     He casually pushed his hair out of his face and linked his fingers behind his head to grin up at her.

     “I seriously doubt any ones leaving without us, we're what they call supercargo.” He drolled. She rolled her eyes and kicked his leg until he grumbled.     “I'm going, I'm going, hell, you act like your in a hurry or something.”

     “We are, uncle Sol said we had five hours to pack and be on the ship. That was nine hours ago. Your lucky he hasn't sent some of his goons to help us along.”

     “You mean to help me along?”

     “Yeah, you, now get a move on already. If I hear another lecture about how I'm suppose to make sure your ready to take the throne I'm going to assassinate him myself. Besides, you know you want to go, get away from uncle for a while?”

     “Last time I checked the Calif system was more than a while away. Its gonna take us two years to get there. Hopefully by the time we get back things will have changed around here.”

     “Oh stop it, by the time you get back your probably going to be the next emperor.”

     “Yeah, right. The only reason he's sending me away is so he can hatch a replacement that's easier to get along with and train. Some one who doesn't have a mind of his own.”

     “Your going to be a real pain in the ass, aren't you Essie?” He grinned in answer, she sighed and stalked down the hall in front of his sarcastic laugh.

     “Wait up, sis,” he linked arms and matched her stride. “I can't get excited about being kicked out of the nest like you are.”

     “What are you talking about? This is the opportunity of a life time, Essie. How many people get to go to another solar system?”

     “You mean besides the hundred or so thousand Marines? Not to mention the thousands of people that abandoned the empire a couple centuries ago?”

     “Don't be a smart ass, smart ass. This is from uncle Sol,” she handed him a stik with the emperors personal seal on it. “He said the security seal won't let you open it for two weeks,” she shrugged at his questioning look. He took it and slipped it into one of the hundreds of tiny pockets he'd sewn into his favorite ship-suit. He'd have it opened and read as soon as he got a minute alone.

     “Probably telling me never to come back,” he mumbled mostly to himself. She stopped and gave him a brief hug that took him by surprise but he let out a deep sigh. “Thanks sis, your the best as usual. Sorry you have to babysit me for the rest of your your life.”

     “I'm just keeping you out of trouble until you become the emperor. So far so good, no major catastrophe's. That I know of.” She wrinkled her nose at him. He returned her expression perfectly. “Not going to confess to anything are you?”

     “Hell no!” He laughed. “First rule of emperorshipism is never confess to doing anything wrong, especially if you have.”

     “Emperorshipism? Is that even a word?” She shoved him playfully. “Knowing you you probably already put it in the official language database.” She sighed at his grin. “When are you going to put those slicing skills to good use, Essie?”

     “Who says I haven't?” He said softly. She narrowed her eyes at him but no more information was forthcoming. He looped his arm in hers and propelled them along.

     The shuttle bay was busy with people and machinery but neither one saw any sign of a royal send off. Selby was both relieved and angry that Sol would let them go without one final word or even a hug. She risked a glance at Essie but his face was carefully blank.

     As they neared the shuttle inquisitor general Kalmar came down the short ramp of an adjacent shuttle.

     “Out of all the people uncle Sol could've sent did he have to send you?” Selby frowned up at the inquisitor general. “Don't you have something else to do? This isn't the shuttle we were assigned to.”

     “I'm sure you were expecting a royal send off but his highness has other matters to attend. Besides, I convinced him you're both self sufficient enough not to need any last minute pampering. I took it on myself to upgrade you to a shuttle befitting someone of both your exalted ranks. You'll find everything you need aboard along with your belongings,” Selby recognized some of her luggage being hauled from the other shuttle as he spoke.

     “I'm sure it didn't take much to convince him to 'attend to other matters' as far as I was concerned,” Essie snapped.

     Ignoring the comment, Kalmar continued. “At the moment I'm making sure both of you make it off the station and onto the ship safe and sound. Your highness,” he made a sweeping bow that was completely unlike him.

     “Don't be a smart ass, Kalmar,” Selby grumbled. She tugged Essie up the ramp into the shuttle. She made a quick tour then stomped back to the ramp where Kalmar waited expectantly.

     “Where the hell is the crew? You expect us to run this thing by ourselves?” She stomped down the ramp to him. He grinned down at her. She put fists on hips trying not to smile. While every one in the solar system feared this one man above the emperor she actually liked him for some reason. “Jack ass.”

     “Unless my information is incorrect, and it rarely is, you and his highness are perfectly qualified to pilot and you hardly need the usual crew for such a short journey.” She glared harder.

     “If I find you a pilot your destination is going to be Heavens Bain.” He paused a moment to let her imagine the next two years working and studying pretty much non-stop. She let out a sigh and deflated.

     “This shuttle is equipped with all the luxuries your use to plus a few extras I hope that you never have need of. Now is the time to stop being the spoiled, protected princess. Use the skills the empire has been giving you for free the last nineteen years. Both of you.” His gaze shifted to one side of her as Essie moved to the top of the ramp. She stomped back up the ramp, gave one final look over her shoulder at Kalmar.

     “Your a jerk,” she slapped her palm on the ramp controls. Just before the hatch sealed she stuck out her tongue. Kalmar chuckled. “What?” She pushed past Essie.

     “I swear you two are like husband and wife or something. He's more feared than Sol himself but your always antagonizing him. Least he's not going with us.” He stopped dead in his tracks. “He's not going with us is he?”

     “With any luck we won't be seeing much of him the next two years. You know how the inquisitors like their privacy.” She sat in the pilots seat and mumbling it was just like that bald headed ass to send her off in a ship with cold engines. She shot a rude glance at Essie chuckling softly but at least he went thru the pre-flight flawlessly. She suppressed an angry retort several times when he rechecked her work, apparently he had some training in this configuration.

     “That's basic stuff, Selby.” He said sternly while correcting the last mistake. Get your mind off your future husband so we can get the hell off this station.”

     “Now who's anxious to go? You know uncle Sol would be here if he didn't-”

     “I know,I know, if he didn't have to run the empire. Business as usual,” he called station control to request take off clearance. Of course they went to the top of the list. “Sometimes its good being the heir apparent.” He grinned as he gently lifted the shuttle without a wobble and exited the shuttle bay at twice the recommended speed.

     “Essie!” She squeaked as he took them on a looping spin between three shuttles sending them scattering. She sighed and took her hands off the controls even though she was in the pilots seat and let him do his thing. By now every one knew he was leaving with the fleet so as long as he didn't crash into anything no one was going to complain. Not to the emperor anyway.

     She turned down the shouting from the three shuttles so as not to disturb Essie’s concentration as he weaved in and around everything he could find.

     “Okay,” he finally set the shuttle on a direct course for the Razorfist at a more sedate speed. “I've been wanting to do that every since Kalmar made me start taking lessons.”

     “I'm sure he's patting himself on the back for that,” she said more to herself. “Your going to be on your best behavior aren't you?” He smiled but didn't answer. “As much as you can please? Kalmars right about one thing as much as I hate to admit he's right about anything. Its time for us to learn to live out from under uncle Sols thumb. You never know, we might actually have a life of our own.”

     “I'm sure he's already ordered every one to make sure we continue our education. Me anyway. So for me it'll be the same life.”

     “Oh, I think you'll find some way to make life away from the empire bearable. I have total confidence in your ability to find something to entertain you. And aggravate every one else.”

     “I do believe you have a point big sis.” His eyes gleamed.

 

     “Welcome aboard, your Highness,” captain Westy nodded slightly, “this is captain T'Shan my executive officer. My apologies for the small welcoming party, we weren't told you were coming until you were landing.”

     “Uncle Sol keeping you on your toes,” Selby sighed. “I'm sorry we're late, some last minute things,” she shrugged and looked at Essie for input but he and captain T'Shan had locked eyes. Selby looked away before Westy noticed.

     “Of course, we're slightly behind schedule awaiting the new fleet commander,” Westy looked at T'Shan who gave a slight shrug of her own.

     “Which reminds me,” Selby pulled out a stik and presented it to Westy. “Uncle Sol said you should read this immediately.” He took the stik and went to the nearest wall console. Emperor Sol appeared on the small screen.

     “Captain Westy you are to assume command of the Razorfist fleet. By now you have met my son and niece. I expect you to take excellent care of them. I think you'll find empress Selby to be of great use to you while you prepare the citizens for inclusion in the empire. Good luck, Fleet Admiral Westy.” The image faded.

     “Well, that solves that problem,” In the back of her mind Selby thought he looked a little pale for someone who just got promoted to fleet admiral his first day on the job as ship captain. In the front of her mind she was mad that her uncle hadn't given Essie any encouragement.

     “I'll make sure the fleets brought up to speed, sir,” T'Shan stepped away briskly, turned back after a few steps to look back. She sighed visibly and continued on her way. Selby turned to Essie while Westy was still in shock and found him watching the bald womans retreating form with a grin on his face. She leaned close.

     “Essie. Leave her alone.” T'Shan went thru a distant hatch and out of view. Essie sighed and brought his gaze back to Selby who rolled her eyes. He had it bad. This should prove to be an interesting trip.

     “Well, if you'll follow me I'll show you to your quarters,” they fell in behind him while workers went to work on the shuttle.

     The VIP decks were full of activity as they stepped off the lift. There was a swift ripple effect as first one person saw them and stiffened. In a matter of seconds the the only sound heard was the soft whirring of air circulators.

     “Emperor Sol the sixteenth and Empress Selby will be making the journey with us,” admiral Westy said into the silence. He looked around noting anger on more than a few faces. He'd have to make sure to put security on the job as soon as possible, wouldn't do to have the royal heirs assassinated on his watch.

     “Seeing as this is going to be a long trip we're not going to stand on too much ceremony. The emperor hand picked each of you for this mission so its only fitting that you be prepared to impart some of your knowledge to the future rulers of the Calif System. Carry on.” He led Essie and Selby thru the parting crowd to the far end of the corridor.

     “This is going to be a long trip,” Essie sighed as Westy touched the pad on the door on the left and the door directly across from it. Both swished open to reveal spacious quarters.

     “Not as spacious as your use to but at least you don't have to share,” Westy smiled. “Of course there'll be security posted-sorry can't take any chances. I'm sure there are sympathizers even here despite the severe screening process. Well, it seems I have matters to attend. Your belongings should be arriving shortly.” He stepped smartly back thru the crowd greeting and shaking hands as word of his promotion trickled through.

 

 

 

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The Carrier - Part 1

My name is no longer important. You have received this email or document depending on who you are because I believed you would be a person who would take what I have to say seriously and that ultimately you would see that this information would be released to the public.

 

I have spent months chronicling my adventures and I know that I will not live to see the results of my work. But you must not think I am crazy. You must look at what I have to say with a critical eye and ask yourself. Could this be true? But enough of this, let me tell of you the last day of my life. I knew what it would be and have included it in the documentation you are about to view. Some of it is recorded, some of it is a vid feed.

 

No matter the form, you will be able to substantiate three things. No feed, whether audio or video has been altered in any way. You see it or hear it the way it was recorded. It is important to stress that because without that information, nothing else matters. Once we record any video or audio, it is locked and cannot be altered. It used a triple encryption sequence that none of us could break, nor wanted to. The only thing the encryption sequence will reveal to people with the correct skills, is that the information gathered here is unaltered and has never been changed.

 

The second, is that we did not make any effort to hide or disguise or faces or voices. We understood that for you to take us seriously, we had to be serious and we understand our lives would ultimately be forfeit. The third thing, and for you the most important, is that we made every effort to hide what we were doing from the prying eyes of the Powers That Be. I capitalize that so you understand I mean that they are literally Powers, they control every aspect of our lives and yours.

 

By engaging this report, you are opening yourself to every Power of the world today who will kill to keep this secret. Let me repeat. If you engage beyond this point, you will likely die. Put your affairs in order. Take a few days with your loved ones. Spend any savings you have. Do anything you think is important for you to do. Because once you read this and likely distribute it the same way I did, in a week to a month, depending on how well you hide your tracks, can move from place to place and can live off the grid, you will be dead. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

 

With that said, I will show you the feed of my last day and let you decide for yourself if what I say has any merit at all.

 

It is cold this time of year. For the last ten years, we have known nothing but bitter cold. But this winter is unlike any before it, because it will be my last. I know this as sure as I draw breath. I have packed up everything of value and have already made all of my mail drops today. I have given my cat, Sasha to my old neighbor in the flophouse I have been staying at. She has been a good mouser and kept my place clear of disease-carrying vermin and been a good and warm companion during the night. The flophouse has no heat, nor hot water so a day there is a choice between stinking or freezing. I must admit I have chosen stinking on especially cold days. My thin blankets and pitiful rations have also been donated with Sasha, my neighbor Demitri, is old and cannot bear the cold as easily as he once did. I know that he loves Sasha as much as I do, and will take good care of her. Sasha is a strong cat, in her prime and liable to serve him for many years to come. I trained her to catch rats and bring them back to share during the lean times and it looks like those times are on us again. He will need her skills. I am beyond their reach now.

 

The sky is bright and I am in good spirits despite myself. I am filled with a sense of purpose and feel that all of the work that we have done in the last few months have been good and valuable and I feel there will be much done after I am gone. The neighborhood I live in is dirty. The walls are covered in graffiti, layered like sedimentary rock, over each other, each layer more garish and more desperate than the last. Each layer shows the hopelessness of each group as they wrote their names, trying to immortalize themselves in a world that did not count them at all. Blood decorates some of those walls as well, as earlier generations kill the next who would cover their bid for immortality.

 

I see the hookers and drug dealers selling their particular drug of choice, knowing that only the desperate would seek any solace here. Yet, there are no lack of customers for either of their particular crafts. The worst part of it all, is that I can see from where I am standing spires of gold, stretching into the heavens. Narrow buildings like spun glass reach into the heavens and tiny streams of vehicles streak between them on innumerable errands, each a sparkling grain of sand against the sanguine sky. I hate them. I hate them because I was once one of them. And because of a twist of fate, an accident of my genome, I learned of a thing so terrible, I could only be cast out from heaven, lest the secret destroy it. The secret is known as The Carrier.

 

Once heavenly bound but no earthly good, I trod along the dirty streets of New Haven, the industrial complex of Kenopoli, one of the major cities on an Earth-like planet, lightyears from where we were born. But Kenopoli was so much like Earth, mankind flourished here just like he did at home once. And here he made the same mistakes. Separated by generations and the barriers of space-time, we landed here, a one way ticket into space and two thousand years separate us from our ancestors and just like man of old, we grew, we prospered, we lied, we cheated, we stole, we killed. All of our great achievements fell away when our old ideas and old ways came back to us. Our utopia became a dystopia and greed became the order of the day.

 

Robots were how mankind escaped Earth, but there was something in the atmosphere, or the magnetosphere, no one has ever been sure, but for whatever reason, this world that did not allow robots to continue to function or new ones to be made. Factories made them, but they simply would not function. Their higher functioning brains simply did not process information. For a while they were dumb laborers, then even those functions died. They worked for one hundred years and when they died, they could not be replaced. Thus the Second Age of Man began. Men were no longer able to manipulate matter as easily and the great cities could no longer be made. So the lesser buildings like New Haven were made in the shadows of the Last Great City of Kenopli.

 

Then came the stratification of Man. We decided that some men were better than others and soon a new caste system appeared. It was not spoken. It was not written. It simply was. And soon our society segmented and those that were less were cast out from the Spires and sent to the New Havens around the world. But work needed to be done without robots and thus manpower was required. So men were forced to work in factories and those factories would darken they skies with their coal and other burnings but those dark clouds never rose into the Spires and those people never knew the dirt and darkness of our mean and cold lives. But a mistake was made. Our economies were mixed and things created in the Spires were needed by the Workers. And the Spires needed resources and manpower from the Lowland, and so trade and corporations and guilds were created and this was momentarily good. But it did not last. We were not vigilant.

 

The came media, new media, all consuming media designed to give us hope, make us feel beautiful, keep us blind to our suffering, inured to the hopelessness of our tasks, unconcerned about our diseases, unaware of the lower quality of life we were leading. And it worked. We consumed blindly, we sought opportunities whenever we could, we joined the corporations in the Midworld between the Spires and the Lowlands and we thought it was good and that it would last forever. And then people like me were born. A few at first but then there were others.

 

They called us damaged, they called us mutants, but in the Old World of Earth, we were called autistics. Humans with subtle genetic variations that kept our minds, every so slightly different from the normal minds of our people. Sometimes you could see the difference. They could not function in society; they had no speech, no capacity for learning beyond the most simple of tasks, their lives were filled with suffering and the State did not acknowledge them as viable members of society. In the beginning they were tolerated, but as time progressed and their numbers increased, they were persecuted because they placed an inordinate drain on society's resources.

 

It was not as if those resources could not be spared, it was simply one more indignity to heap upon the masses, one more shame they were forced to bear as if, they had not enough to deal with. It was claimed there was no known cause of autism, or of any of the myriad of mental issues that began to plague our people in greater numbers than ever. We had lived on this world now for over two thousand years and had a population of two billion people. Strict controls on birth and death kept populations manageable and ultimately the severely autistic were eventually put to death. But there were other autistics whose minds allowed them to do amazing things, to see and hear and think of things no norm ever could. To be aware of patterns within patterns. To be aware of new ways of seeing and hearing and understanding numbers in ways previously unconsidered and that is where I became aware of the Carrier.

 

All of this, you already know, I only restate it so you can understand what you are dealing with. As a child who was only mildly autistic, I became aware of a particular sound I could sense in my environment that I noticed no one else could hear. I did not know that as a child and my issues prevented me from telling anyone about it. Whenever the radio was playing or a datafeed was being broadcast, I could hear this sound and it made me sick to my stomach. I burned inside, my head was on fire, my stomach would void and it would last as long as the media was available to my senses. I could not hide from it, and covering my ears offered some limited relief. I learned it was not all music or all datafeeds and things my parents considered Old Music did not cause me that sickness. So my parents catered to my needs and we only played old recordings of music. It was only when public feeds were available did I get terribly ill. I eventually learned to grit my teeth and bear it, and only occasionally threw up in the presence of music or live datafeeds.

 

By the time I learned to speak effectively, I could not tell anyone because no one I knew could hear it but me. I knew my parents did not condone such silliness as imaginary friends or imaginary sounds, so I learned to keep it to myself and would have never thought anything of it until I reached high school and met my first friend like me. His name was Kenneth Watson. He was the first person I knew to die when he made his teachers aware of the Carrier.

 

The Carrier - Part 2

 

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Immortal 3: Stealer of Souls is here!

“The old woman laughed out loud, unbuttoned her calico shift and let it fall to her ankles. Annabelle kicked free of it, and pulled the pins from her hair. Naked in the moonlight, she whispered his name… “

 

They thought it was over. The werewolves, Joan, Consuela, José and Mark fought to save Tundra. Now they sit on Topaz’s High Council where they’re feeding the hungry, tackling race riots, rebuilding their world. But come nightfall a daemon walks the streets. He knows all about the young woman with the chilling secret. He knows about her mirror and of the ancient evil that’s awakened. History has been rewritten and a new war has just begun…

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Matty's Rocket is a galaxy spanning tale about the adventures of space pilot Matty Watty. This animatic series is based in an alternative past where the 30s-40s pulp stylings of Buck Rogers, Flash Gordon, and Fritz Lang's Metropolis collide with the real world events of World War 2, FDR, Nazis, the Harlem Renaissance and the oppressive Jim Crow era, Watch as Matty navigates her vessel through a dangerous world filled with evil villains, heroic feats, alien oddities and down home adventure.  

 

 

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The whole extraterrestrial/God thing* is kind of dicey, conversation-wise. Like, there are a lot of people won’t even mess with this topic.
Especially my intellectual, edumucated peeps. Folks who will engage on almost any other topic of the day – sex, race, class, whatever – will NOT step to the God-thing too tough…and won’t even PRETEND to acknowledge any commentary on ‘aliens’ or life off-planet.
I can dig it.
Most folks’ take is, “Why truck with the invisible and unsubstantiated -- when there’s so much in-our-face/unmitigated/ unconscionable/wackness going on?  Like, why does it matter, what’s out there, up there, if it ain’t affecting me day to day -- and anyway, I can’t CONTROL IT, so what’s the point of even thinking about it…”
Yeaaahhhh…I can dig it. 
So, why my own fascination/obsession with all of it -- even before the vision of the alien chick?
Maybe…death.
The dark, eternity of space. Wherein/and throughout/and outside of/and still creating all of it/all of us/where we have been/and where we will go/is God
…and, some unfathomably superior and powerful species capable of transversing all of that limitless darkness…an entity which, ultimately, can turn our sum total of earthly ass to grass
Yeah. Definitely. Death.
Or, maybe not. 
Because on the other side of that end of flesh/life here on earthwhat would there be… except pure spirit.consciousness… ultimately, true immortality?
And to my mind… that, right there – is the shit.
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*from my continuing research on the many similar, recurring ‘Gods from the sky’ narratives and depictions found in ancient myths, creation stories, and religious traditions worldwide, only conflating the two makes any sense to me, at this point...

NOTE ON VIDEO: I thought this was kind of interesting. I'll be adding lots of links to the blog, since there's so much out there, God bless youtube, right? This is titled, "Reverend Barry Dowling: UFOs and Religion."
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First Chapter of My YA story

I'm currently working on a YA scifi series and frankly  am not sue if it is any good. It's a "space opera" I love those, they are just fun to me and I thought I'd post my first chapter, so that I can get some honest feedback. So please everybody, let me know what you think.

 

One

“Worlds are birthed in coldness, but die in blood and fire.”

-Old Maraudan Proverb.

 

Harcadia Colony, The Edge

United Republic of Planets

 

     The ash from the burning Bargel colony was falling on the land like a dark, dry rainstorm. Tara was horrified by the images before her and while the sights around her were quickly becoming one horrific blur, she could not tune out the loud shrieks of the human and Bargel colonists who were falling under their attackers’ relentless assault. She tried to raise her body off the ground, but her head was pounding, and her legs no longer seemed to work. Tiny red rocks were grinding into her brown legs as she slowly crawled forward, and for the first time, the deep red sand that sprawled across the Bargel’s half of the planet held no beauty for her. Her braids were sticking to her forehead, but she didn’t seem to have the energy to push them back. She noticed large blotches of blood on her legs and fought back a surge of panic.

     Was she hurt? Was the wound fatal?

     She traced the path of the blood. Yes, her legs were scared, but the wounds did not seem deep enough to create this type of bleeding. She looked at the blood on her fingers.

      Blue? 

     Human blood was not blue. She rolled over and nearly screamed at the sight of the dead Bargel lying beside her. Its rough, hairless gray skin was soaked in its blood and its legs were clearly broken. A tear escaped her eyes as she realized what had happened. Unlike her and the other humans in the colony, the Bargel were being slaughtered without mercy. She knew though, that he colony had not fallen without a fight. The Bargel were known for their toughness and had been one of the last races of Albys to fall in the Unification War.

     The heat was starting to get to Tara as she continued to crawl. The orange sky seemed redder then it ever had, even as the usual afternoon rain shower began to fall. Tara knew at once that it was a sign that Yah was crying for her world.

      She let out a disgusted laugh.

      When the attacks began, her people fled to this side of the planet in hopes that the savages they mocked and isolated would be able to protect them, but Tara now knew that this part of the planet would hold no salvation for anyone. She was so tired, but she forced herself forward. She had to find a place to hide and some how wait out the attacks. She had only moved a few metrics when she heard a faint cry.

       It was an old, human woman.

       Her thick braids, more gray then black, were matted across her brown forehead. Tara crawled over to the woman. The old woman was bruised and battered, her clothes were torn and her face was full of terror. Tara wished she could do something, anything to ease the old woman’s suffering, but she knew all she could do was be there.

“Help me,” the old woman whispered, her terrified gaze intensifying with every word. The old woman pleaded for help again, but this time the plea was not to her. Tara looked behind her, frozen in fear, as one of her planet's conquerors advanced towards her. She could see the soldiers now. Their gold chest plates were glistening in the sun and the bare legs that hung out of their navy blue pleated skirts were a dark brown and their hair…Tara let out a loud gasp.

       They were bald! They were humans. Maraudans. Her own people were trying to destroy her. The revelation shocked Tara. For some reason she expected these monsters to be Albys.

    “Help me,” pleaded the woman again.

    “I will,” promised Tara, squeezing her hand. “I’ll get help.”

      But before she could move, a dark figure approached. Tara could tell by her strides that she was a woman. The dark figure was wearing the same type of military gear that the soldiers wore, but you could see her long braids coming out of her gold, fitted helmet. She walked like she owned the air, the ground, and the universe. She was the most beautiful thing that Tara had ever seen.

     “It looks like we have another wounded animal,” said the Dark One.

      “Help me please,” begged the old woman, her voice cracking with every sentence. “My daughter… I need to get to my daughter.”

     “I don’t think you’ll have much luck finding your daughter in all this,” the Dark One sneered.

       The old woman began to shake.  “Please, Your Highness. Please have mercy on me. I have been loyal to my Maraudan heritage and to you. I fought with your father during the Great War. Please command this mighty army…tell them…they can find my daughter...help me.”

    The Dark One’s brown eyes hardened. “Alright I’ll help. I always want to help a loyal citizen of the Empire.”

    The Dark One moved to her side and produced a blast pistol. Tara couldn’t breathe.

    “I’ll help put you out of your misery,” she laughed, firing a ray from her blast pistol into the old woman’s chest.

     Tara did not have to look down at her to know that she was dead.

     “I just hate to see animals suffer don’t you?” she asked, turning to Tara. “A loyal citizen of the Empire would be in Maraudan space.”

     “She was just a poor injured woman,” said Tara, in a courageous tone she didn’t feel.        

     “She couldn’t have done anything to you.”

      “I didn’t say she could.”

       The Dark One’s smile chilled Tara’s very soul.

      “I suppose you are going to kill me, too.”

      “Maybe.”

     Tara fought back her fear. She used all the strength inside of her to pull herself up. She was Tara from the House of Yaronn. If she was going to die she was going to meet her fate with dignity.

    “Why are you doing this?”

     It wasn’t a plea, just a simple question.

    The Dark One leaned over Tara and she could feel her breathe in her ear. “I did this to send a message Little One.”

    “What message is that?”

     The Dark One’s words were slow and deliberate. “That we are back.”

     Tara opened her mouth to protest but she felt a burning sensation in her chest. She felt herself drop to her knees and looked up as the Dark One, her queen, walked away from her. She didn’t see the look of small regret that flickered on the young queen’s face, nor did she hear the cries of the wailing baby whose mother had been shot just two metrics away from her. By then, Tara was already gone.

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pattern recog

I have said that a city or society is a repository of information, knowledge, technology, it is held corporately. When you are educated you learn the language and nuance to access that knowledge. That education is a kind of pattern recognition training, so that when you look through the knowledge repository you can see how things fit together. In other words you recognize the patterns that make information useful and applicable.Some person's makeup allow them to be very broad and others allow them to be very focused. There is specific training and general training. What ever level your makeup, circumstance, opportunities afford you, that is the level of access you have. There is another dimension. Though you may only find certain info immediately useful, the mind is always looking to recognize patterns in all the information it peruses. This is why an auto mechanic can have an epiphany about cancer research. Is he a doctor no, but read some articles, watched some PBS specials, lived with a cancer patient, heard cancer survivor talk, doctor chat. His mind put the patterns together.Sometimes societies engage in title taking. It is a way to raise ones status by endorsing the patterns and realizations as seen by a focus group. Say doctors or lawyers. We call this accepted knowledge. What is accepted as fact or law becomes the standard for that society. If you are well versed in understanding the standard you receive a paper which says so, thus afforded a rank of professional privilege or authority. This is OK especially when looking for integrity and reputable people to handle your affairs or represent you.Then you also get a stasis in knowledge like when the whole focus community endorses something according to their understanding. That is the truth, the fact, the nature of what it is, there is no more to know!! The problem is the pattern recognition brain merges two patterns previously kept separate by their respective focus communities. Someone recognizes a new pattern, it causes an uproar in the separate focus groups. It changes the considerations of the two previously separate focus communities. Great resistance, outrage, I'll bet my credentials that is not true, my reputation is at stake, I can't endorse what I didn't learn. It's not new knowledge, it's new patterns. And seeing new patterns in old knowledge especially is powerful and life changing.
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MODOC - Part 3 - Video Visions

Metal Organism Designed Only for Cuddling - Part 3

That Woman came to the store to pick me up. She was dressed in some religious frock that covered her nearly from the top of her head to the tops of her shoes. Unlike a cat, I actually have color vision and found it to be colors I could have happily lived without seeing, a dark tan and brown combination which clung to her narrow frame and only accentuated her lack of a steady diet.

When she picked me up she paid in Energy Credits to the Build-A-Pet and they accepted them happily. Energy was hard to come by today especially during the winter since the bulk of the city's services were powered by solar energy. I was fueled up before I left and my energy management software was upgraded right before I left to maximize my stores. I was also able to be charged using solar energy, electrical energy and even static electricity, I collected the stray ions from carpeted environments, sweaters and any place else electrical energy might linger that I might absorb. Many of my proper feline mannerisms would also have the happy byproduct of conducting electricity down my extruded fiber super-conductive fur.

While I waited for release from my Build-a-Pet pen, I was shown sample images from my new home, so that I might familiarize myself with the environment. They wanted me to maximize my time with my new boy, Justin Pennyworth. I was show a biography of his lifestyle, his health and parameters that I would be expected to monitor, graph and report on weekly. My sensor suite was sufficient to mark his health from as far as ten meters away. Ten years old, above average student, below average athlete due to a variety of minor health ailments, mild asthma, potential for seizures, whose source as yet unknown, and his visual impairment. In many ways he seemed an unremarkable lad, except for his sensor ribbon which approximated in a very primitive way some sense of sight. He suffered some sort of congenital disease as a babe and it caused him to have a neural difficulty in his visual cortex. The technology he is currently using has co-opted other parts of his brain and turned them into a pseudo-visual cortex, with very limited results.

I spent my two days watching videos of the house, the boy and his family. I came to several conclusions regarding them after watching the footage. They were only a little better off than most of the denizens of New York City. Working with the Ecclesiastical Government as social workers allowed them to maintain their modest apartment, the therapy for their son and a minor award from their Patron allowed them to buy me as part of his therapy toolset. The father, Todd Pennyworth, a man of modest physical build, who wore his church sponsored suit of brown and tan over his taunt and skinny frame with its too tight neckline, seemed an honest fellow. His face, sharp and angular had a bit of a nervous tic over one eye that was noticeable only when he was under stress or whenever a representative of the Church was around.. There was something about him that would make me suspicious, but I could not tell you what it was. The wife, Sarah Pennyworth was reputed to have come from good religious stock and as such gave Todd whatever legitimacy he enjoyed as a member of the Church. Humans might have once considered her good looking but the birth of Justin seemed to drain her of any vitality, color or energy from her. Comparing photos of her from before his birth and afterward almost made her appear to be a different woman.

No matter. I was not intending to stay long, at any rate. But I noted there might be a snag with my easy escape. It came in the form of a security system named Max. Max was the family's protection hardware provided by the Church, both as a watchdog and spy to monitor their activities. The Pennyworth's had access to classified Church hardware and would not be allowed to access just anything without proper protocols. That is where Max came in. He provided all information into and out of the household. Even this feed I was watching was encoded, connected and provided by Max and the Church. The Patron who paid for this connection was called Proctor Grimaldi. The Proctor was a distinguished gentleman of the Church, with an exemplary record of service. From what I was able to get from Max, the Proctor had considerable influence, and was responsible for a number of services in the borough of Manhattan with its population of fifteen million souls crowded on the island.

Max was a factor I did not count on and once I realized he existed, I knew I would have to bide my time, so I set about learning as much as I could, so when the moment came where I could escape, everything would be ready and there would be no turning back.

MODOC - Part 4 - We don't need no stinking cat!

'Metal Organism Designed only for Cuddling' © Thaddeus Howze 2010. All Rights Reserved

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Fighting to end racism and discrimination against descendants of the African Diaspora through a year of global activism 


“A Call For The End of Global Apartheid" (http://www.blogher.com/ member/ivory-simone), an article written by me, was my declaration of war against the insidious evil of “anti-black” racism, a poisonous root of the legacy of slavery and a venomous expression of widespread social and cultural biases, that continues to diminish the hopes and limit the potential of descendants of the African Diaspora wherever they live in the world. 

A number of people challenged my use of the word apartheid because it was a form of racial oppression specific to South Africa and its long history of anti-black terror tactics. However, the systemic marginalization of black peoples by international governments through policies and practices that limit their access to housing, employment and education, which stigmatizes dark skinned people making them the object of derision, ridicule and hatred while subjecting them to unequal treatment under the law is a form of apartheid. That these governments marginalize, penalize and demonize black people solely because of their race is irrefutable, so what we’re actually quibbling about with regard to my use of the term “apartheid” is the severity or degree of oppression created by an individual nation’s anti-black policies. In other words, those fixated on the term seem to suggest my use of it is an “overstatement” of the problem unless I can show a foreign government’s racist policies are similar to those of the South African apartheid system. 

Firstly, apartheid in South Africa was used by a white minority to maintain power over a black majority, and, except for the African continent and parts of the Caribbean and Central America, very few foreign nations have black majority populations. Therefore, some of the most inhumane features of that system, the Group Land Act and pass laws, haven’t been duplicated elsewhere—at least not yet, which is my point. 

The reason we must speak out about this problem is to discourage and, hopefully, prevent governments from using more repressive measures against their native and/or immigrant black populations. A situation that could easily happen because, sadly, when a foreign government abuses and mistreats a black minority group living within its borders, the international community tends to adopt the attitude many communities had about domestic violence twenty years ago, “it ain’t none of our business”. 

Finally, if I had titled my article, “ A Call To End Global Jim Crow-ism”, evoking memories of the separate and unequal policies of the United States 70 years ago, would those objecting to the use of the term apartheid have been more comfortable with this historical reference? My concern is that we may become so distracted by such academic arguments, we’ll waste precious time and stray off message, which simply stated is—working together to end global racism. For this reason, I’d be happy if people choose to call this the “OneWorld/OneLove Campaign”, (because at the end of the day that’s the goal I’d like to achieve), so long as we stay on message. 

In speaking to friends and colleagues about my desire to move beyond merely discussing the problem to combating it, I heard time and again, global apartheid or anti-black racism is a complex issue; too complex to lend itself to simple solutions (an assumption this campaign will challenge). 

For instance, even the origin of anti-black beliefs varies among nations. Logically speaking, those nations that engaged in the African slave trade should be at the top of the list of perpetuators of anti-black racism. Yet, surprisingly or not, these nations have made the most progress in redressing the social ills heaped on the backs of descendants of the Diaspora. Whereas many societies/governments that never participated in the African slave trade have the most virulent anti-black belief systems. I’ve stated before and will do so again, “I’m curious about why people from so many world cultures have learned to hate blackness.” 

Doubtlessly, the source(s) of these negative views of black people come from a number of places, including, to name a few, the world media, or as a result of colonization by nations with deeply ingrained anti-black beliefs or as a consequence of native people groups using skin color to reify class/clan/ distinctions. 

Not only must we contend with black/white racism, there’s also the hybrid “dark skin vs. light skin” intra-group racism to combat. For example, in countries like the Dominican Republic, a Caribbean nation with a well documented color divide, anti-black policies are based on degrees of darkness. Light-skinned people of color actively discriminate against and oppress their darker skinned countrymen. 

Although the scope and complexity of this problem boggles the mind, I’m a firm believer in the “power of one”. One person committed to positive change can become a catalyst for “that change” in his/her neighborhood; a transformed neighborhood can become a change agent for a entire city; and, a transformed city can create positive change in an entire state or province, and so on and so forth. In order to get the message out to the world, I’m relying on the incredible power of social networking. It is an amazing vehicle for connecting people to causes and to each other. 

In short, I believe the success of this campaign will depend on its effective use of the social networking apparatus to spread its message of “ending global racism”, and its ability to make a connection with people to inspire them to do two things: 

1. Join the effort 

If you’re on facebook become a member of the “A Million Voices Against Global Racism” Group. Here’s the link http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_130975403632717 

2. Commit to taking action 

The United Nations has declared 2011 The International Year of People of African Descent. Follow this link to read the resolution: 
http://www.un.org/observances/years.shtml 
In observance of this special year devoted to People of African Descent, I’m asking people of conscience to commit to doing at least one activity during 2011 to raise awareness about the problem of global anti-black racism and/or one activity designed to combat it. 

Another important part of the campaign is sharing our ideas, stories, opinions, comments and thoughts about this difficult and painful subject with each other and the world; as well as documenting our individual and/or group activities designed to raise awareness about the problem or to combat it. To facilitate this community connection, I’ve created a facebook page entitled, “The Lift Every Voice Campaign Against Global Racism”. Here’s the link to the page: 
http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Lift-Every-Voice-Campaign-Against-Global-Racism/186798531332150?ref=sgm 

One of the first “anti-black racism” awareness activities I propose doing is a Kabuki inspired “Flashmob” Protest against the glorification of “whiteness” and the vilification of “blackness” that is pervasive in Asian countries. More details about this event will be posted on “The Life Every Voice Campaign Against Global Racism” page—so visit the site frequently for updates. 

I readily admit I don’t have answers on how to solve this problem but I’m convinced working together as a community of people determined to end this global sickness, we’ll find solutions. 


Ivory Simone is an author and poet based in Bangkok, Thailand. She has published two books through lulu.com: “Havasu Means Blue Water” (a literary fiction) and “The Rainy Season, The Poems, Prose and Writings of Ivory Simone”. For more information about Ms. Simone’s books, visit her author’s page at: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/ivorysimone . 

You can also hear her bi-monthly podcasts about expat lifestyles on the BlogTalkRadio show “Take A Bite Out The Big Mango” at:  
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/ivorysimone 

 

 

 

 

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Aspen Waifs: Part 3


If anyone were to ask me "What do you do?" I'd have to hesitate and say some non word interjection. I do a lot of different things. Sometimes I'm training sometimes I'm getting train, all the time I'm doing something like running a diagnostic test or delivering new parts. Sometimes I'm sending messages to some of the fixer uppers. And then there are the times I'm cleaning up someone's mess, be it my superior or someone throwing a little get together.

Today I'm doing diagnostic in one of the crawls. I think I use to be a bit claustrophobic. Not anymore. Crawls are the reason that I'm not as uncomfortable in my room as I should be. They are narrow crawl spaces that run between halls and rooms and between different floors. Most control panels are operated through central hubs in these crawl spaces. It's big enough for two averaged size people to crawl side by side, and high enough that anyone of average height to below average height can sit up straight in one. I'm on the small side so it's no problem for me. Though, there are places you can stand up.

I hear a bang. That must be Flip. I turn around, and there he is rubbing his head making the most idiotic face. "What are you doing in here?" They don't make taller people like Flip work the Crawl. And Flip is very tall.

"I just finished what I was doing and thought I'd stop by before heading back to the master." Flip gives me the thumbs up. "Are you coming to see Langley and Winters later?"

I nod, "You bet." I'm smiling a little because he's so obviously uncomfortable in here. And there is hardly any space for him to turn around.

Flip wasn't exactly like Langley, Winters and myself. He'd been forced to be here, but the circumstances were very different. As far as I could tell, he was a Cushy who liked slumming it (not in a bad way though). He'd been a cadet in military school who found himself in a good deal of trouble that even his father couldn't get him out of. This was his punishment. Some punishment. I never understood why Cushies always messed up their lives. Still I never castigated him, mostly because, I get the feeling that he's here because of something political. And even though if he had some lofty opinions, mostly he was a good person. He didn't look down on us either.

One thing I also like about Flip is his respect for the silence. Most other people would be chatting away right now, but he's sitting over there being quiet. He understands that silent thing about me. I do way better when I don't have to talk with people. Earlier today is a fine example.

When I first met Flip, we were sent together to do luggage delivery and room systems checks. We spent four whole days together working and breaking at the same time; I hadn't said a word to him, just gave him a nod everyday. After that we were split up, but we were still working the same hours. And he continued to eat with me. Then we started to talk, but by then, I kind of already knew him. Actions can speak a whole lot louder than words.

"Done!" I smile at Flip. He looks up from fiddling with his watch. "We can go get another assignment complete it and then go visit Langley and Winters or go visit Langley and Winters then get another assignment."

"I say assignment first." Flip says. "I'd rather end the day with something I want to do. Then we can go eat because I'm hungry."

"Stupid." I say. "You should have eaten breakfast." He never eats breakfast.

"I usually take lunch. But since we've been given the same shift again I can eat with you."

"I know." Flip eats one meal a day. I do two meals a day and sometimes I'm still hungry. I don't know how he does it. I'm pretty sure that, unlike me, he grew up with a surplus of food. I'm use to one meal a day, but I never liked it.

When we exited the Crawl the halls were pretty empty.  It's so weird; for a ship that's pretty full of people, there never seems to be anyone around. And you know what else is really sad? I have no clue what we're doing out here. They didn't care to much to enlighten me when they told me this is where I'd be placed. I get the feeling this might be a one way trip. Not that I really care because I don't have a future on Earth or anything to come back to. Maybe I do have a bit of space crazy; apathy is a symptom.  And normal me would care.  I'm not going to report it since I'm pretty sure I'm not going to snap and hurt anyone.

The operation office is located in the engine hub. In the center are the ships three engines; you can see them through the glass window, but you have to have clearance to get in there. It's a hexagonal room with several different terminals against the walls. Each engine is a glowing violet cluster of spheres, reminding me of balloons. They look like they just float there like the corners of a triangle. The one at the top is never glowing--I think they rotate use, but I could be wrong about that since I know nothing about them.

I stop staring out the window and look around the operations office.  It's actually pretty big; it takes up one half of the engine hub. Most of the space are rooms filled with supplies. They have a duty roster for the shifts of our superiors in the front room along with two clerks who stamp you for duties complete and duties to be completed. Presently there are no clerks so we head to one of the two back offices where our boss is.

Andrew Ullerman is sitting at his desk reading over some stuff. He looks up immediately; his amber colored eyes examine us. He's the more pleasant of our bosses. His second in command, Davis Hardwick is a real bastard. Ullerman is kind of strict, but at least he doesn't make things impossible. Hardwick once wrote me up for not knowing how to do something I was never trained to do. It helps, I think, that Ullerman has an adopted son so he knows where most of us are coming from.  There's also Jordan Decker but he's never around.

I hand him over my tube, it's a little cylindrical devices that synchs to different systems in the ship. You need a specific one to do specific functions. Every task you do that requires any sort of computer access requires a tube. It's synch to your watch so that the computer knows it's you using it.  Then you have to slide it into this little slot like a key on any control panel.  Wordlessly, he hands me another tube. I take it and go.

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the year in my rear view

So it's the second day of the reshuffled deck and I need to do this or I won't get to it.

The last eighteen months have been crazy. Awesome but crazy.


Much of my conversation here has been about the roller
coaster and what it takes to survive it. I came up with equations, some zippy one-liners and some, I hope,

fun anecdotes about all that, all in aid of saying, "This is doable. It's wicked hard work but it's doable."


That paparazzi-chasing gadabout Marcus Aurelius
popped this one off a little while back and I took it to heart. "Because a thing seems difficult for you, do not think it impossible for anyone to accomplish."


He's a quippy little bugger, old Marcus is, but
that one is true.


So. The last eighteen months.

To compress a really long story into something bite-sized,
I made it a policy over the last few years to say, "yes" to any paying gig that involved me writing, polishing or

consulting on the writing of fiction of any sort. I met, worked with and for a lot of people in that time and wrote a stack of stuff I'd never have written otherwise.


So one of those former employers came to me with a
proposal - "Co-write something with me and I guarantee the right people will see it." So I did. So she did and we

ended up staff writers on this:


It was an interesting experience in the Proverbial Chinese way. I wrote a lot. I learned a lot. I met some great people. My partner (yes, we were partners for the duration) and I were not asked to return. They say this means nothing in the big scheme of professional TV writing but to me it felt like being fired (because that's what it was) and it was the first time in over 20 years of professional employment that I'd been fired.



Well. Wait. No. Right out of college I worked in a sort of
cold-calling sweatshop managed by a former classmate who fired me for being ten minutes late. Once. He was a prick but ten minutes is ten minutes, I guess. Live and learn.



Anyway. I was rescued from professional oblivion (the sort
of oblivion that exists only after you've been fired from something you've worked years to attain. can you say

"bleak?") by the good folks at this place:


I loved this show and had tried for two seasons to get a seat at that table. They always liked me, they said, but the money was never there. This year, in the proverbial nick of time, not only was the money there but there was an empty chair.

I packed up my kit at Law and Order on a Friday. That Monday I was at Leverage.

The next twenty weeks were, by far, the most fun and the most rewarding of my professional life due ENTIRELY to the awesome crew of people I was lucky enough to work with there. They bust their asses to make that show and they manage to do it with a smile (usually) and without becoming [expletive-deleted]'s. To say I loved this time is to understate the feeling by parsecs.

I helped with all the episodes (everyone does; that's how it works) and I got to write this:

and co-write this:

Fun, baby. I mean If-You-Seek-ing FUN.

And scary. Flying solo is always scary, no matter how many times you do it.

I have to stress, too, that this was, none of it, due to lottery wins or luck. I don't believe in luck. I don't believe in thanking the spirit world or providence or any of that for the wins I get in life or blaming my many losses on the bad will of evil ghosts.

I believe in hard work. I believe in taking the punch and getting off the mat as fast as you can. This blog has, when it has talked about anything serious, stressed that one view over and over.

Another thing that happened this year– and, by "happened," I mean "something else I worked hard to make real."– was this:

My friend, Todd Harris, and I did this comic, all 96 pages, in tiny slivers of our "spare time" over about three and a half months. Just the two of us. Everything. And then we would go to our day jobs and write and draw there. In addition to the extremely positive response from fans and critics (EXTREMELY positive) this comic book was instrumental in getting the attention of the creators/producers of this:


I'm immature. Most people who know me know this. I watch shows like this, not because I'd like to write them ( I would and that's a part of it) but because I LIKE them. I enjoy the adventures and the intrigues and, as this has been the case for over 30 years now, I don't think it's going away. Immature. Me.

So I'm at Geek Mecca (aka the San Diego Comic-Con) last year and I get called out on the floor by one of said producers.

"Hey, Geoff! I read Prodigal! Really nice work, man!" (paraphrase, of course. they don't talk like that. I do.) "Would you like to write an episode of our show?"

I said, "Hell yes," of course. And I got to do it. I got to write two. More on that later.

The other thing, the newest and maybe strangest, is this:

I read this : John August's Blog

I was inspired by that to create this: The Winterman Project

Things are going well. More on that later too.

So that was the year. 18 months. Sounds great, right. And it is. It really is. But please, please, PLEASE, remember the point of all this.

This is, none of it, the result of Luck, or Fate, or Chance or Magic or Prayer. No divine hand reached down and tapped my shoulder. No mystical voice spoke secret words in my ear. And, during times of adversity, there is no curse on my back, no dark mark in the sky, no blot on my forehead.

Life is flux. Life is change. Life is work. And Life is buckets and buckets, stacks and stacks of failures.

Strive. Fail. Fall. Rise. Strive. Fail. Fall. Repeat.

No fate but the one we make.
But, getting back to Marcus Aurellius...

Maybe you think it's pretentious to mention him at all. Fair enough. Another quippy guy, a bit younger, a bit more recently said something similar to the first one. He goes by the name of Mamet:

Yeah. You're God Damn right.

Life is short. Kill that [expletive deleted]ing bear.

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Happy New Year!

Happy New Year from Mocha Memoirs Press and myself, Nicole Givens Kurtz! I'm excited to begin 2011. I've happy to be connected to such fantastic writers, professionals, and great editors.

There's so much talent out there. I'm ready to meet my goals. Mocha Memoirs has some thought-provoking science fiction stories scheduled for release this month. Beginning January 7th, Miriam Ruff's PROGRAM COMPLETED, will be available. This espresso shot of serious science fiction will keep you awake long after the story's over. Then on January 14th, Rie Sheridan Rose's dark dystopian story, DRINK MY SOUL, PLEASE explores war and its after effects.

 

Stop on over and join us at MMP. I invite you to submit also. The best way to know what we're looking for is to buy our stories and see what we like.

 

I wish you much success in this dynamic new year!

 

NGK

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Laments of a Slave

 

I lays in this bed of straw.

Hoping for the day the ground will thaw.

 

I needs to be getting up to stokes the fire so it don’t goes out.

 

I lays in this bed

Don’t wanna think.

Pulls the torn blanket over my head

Wanting the ground to open so in I sink.

 

Mastah be coming soon.

 

Hates it when he comes in here.

Fills the room with so much gloom

Don’t like it when he comes so near.

 

Done born Mastah six babies.

Done lost three men.

 

“Animals don’t love. He said.

It’s a God forbidden sin.”

 

“Make babies to sell

Tend to the fields

Then die, go to hell

And hand by your heels”.

 

“I own you.

Freedoms not yours”.

 

“I brought you to tend my crops

And mop my floors

And have my damn supper ready by noon.

You stupid coon”.

 

Just biding my time looking for those doors

I hears will be opening soon.

 

Many a night I crys

Tears always in my eyes

Since Mastah sold my man.

 

Eyes that would make you weep

Strong arms that rocked me to sleep,

as he whispered in my ear.

“Sleep woman, knowing that I loves ya…

 even when I’m not here!”

 

His skin was Black and beautiful as the night.

Loved that man first time Mastah brought him into my sight.

 

Mastah be coming soon.

“Gawn away. I want to shout.

You nasty smelling goon.”

But I can’t.

Must wait.

Bottle my hate.

 

Gots to get up and tends the fire befores it goes out.

 

Don’t know my right age.

Ain’t that a shame?

 

Mama Moe says that what they calls me

Tain’t even my right name.

 

She told me the years says, I’m twenty and three

Am I too young to known such misery?

 

I remembers my mama.

Hair in black rings around her head.

 

I think I was nine years

When they shot her dead.

 

“Serves her right.

“Shouldn’t have tried to run.” Was all they said

 

That Mastah saw the hate in my eyes.

 

“Sell the girl

She’s no good to me now.

Sell her off

Don’t want her around.”

 

I had a new meaner Mastah the next day.

Took me straight to the shack,

stole my virginity away.

 

Biding my time waiting for those doors

I hears will be opening soon.

 

I hears him coming

I knows his walk

When he comes through that door

I will not talk

Will not say his name

To make him feel great

Must…bottle my hate

 

Just remove

His boots,

His pants

His shirt

 

All the while his hands be up my skirt.

 

Just biding my time…

 

After he done gone

I ran to Falama

Threw open her door.

Laid myself on her dirt floor.

 

"O, Sista of Beams, Mother of Light.

Help me grow wings so's I'd can take flight."

 

"Do you know what you ask, she said.

Once done cannot take back

Think about the things you’ll lack."

 

I don’t care I need to fly

I want to keep the child I have inside

And Mastah will surly sell it.

 

"Don’t you think I cried enuf?

Don’t you think I’ve stuffed enuf straw in my mouth

Evera time Mastah leaves my cabin to hush my pain?

 

Let me tell you a yumlaga (story) about a young man named Zita

Falama said

As she stroked my crying head          

 

Now he was a spoiled one

Thirteen summers at the time of this yumlaga.

Pride of his motha and woe of his fatha

 

“You coddle him to much.” He say.

“He must become a man.  He’ll be gone someday.”

 

His motha would just shake her head

Click her tongue

And listen to all he said

Zita was her only son.

 

Now Zita was in his own little world.

Fights with the other boys.

And taunted one little girl.

 

As they grew older, he taunted her more

His taunts were of love

But he didn’t know how to open that door

 

Lasata knew of this

Because from birth she was his

But her fatha promised another

No one else shall be her lover.

 

She came to me and she said one day.

“If I can’t be Zita’s

I want to fly away.”

 

Fix it my Sista of Beams, Motha of Light

Gives us wings, let us take flight.

 

She was told to listen close and listen well.

Do as I say or else you fail.

 

She was given instructions as to what she must do.

 

Out of my hut she flew.

 

Down to the forest for the feathers

 

Back to the skinning hut for the leather.

 

Up to the mountain for the flower.

 

"Hurry, hurry", She kept telling herself for nears the hour.

 

She told Zita to meet her under the old weeping tree.

 

From that point they will flee.

 

Just as the sun started to sleep, Zita came

To where Lasata had the fire glowing

Anticipation overflowing.

 

They look at each other

needing love and trust.

 

Hurry! Hurry!  It’s almost dusk.

 

She said what she was told to say

Into the fire went her mystic findings

Packed in red clay

 

She felt a prickling, a tingling in her arms

A look at Zita quieted all her alarms.

 

She felt herself lifted as her body shifted

To fit what she was to become.

 

But, Zita just stood there looking o’ so dumb.

 

Then as she shifted for the last time.

 

She remembered a part of the magical rhyme

She forgot to say…

 

“From morning to night, dusk to dawn, send all bad thought away.

At the light of morning a new beginning

On four wings of love

Never carelessly spinning.”

 

Zita never married

The people in the village always wondered

Why but never questioned

Why he carried

This black bird

which showed the day

Lasata was no longer heard.

 

Now listen to me and listen well, she said

Unless all you do will fail.

 

I took it all into my ignorant head

I took it all in without dread.

 

Now, here I am free,

Not as free as I like to be

 

Waiting for the birth of my baby.

 

I did flee that night

But not on wings

 

Just listened to the

Black bird

Who sings

 

Of freedom

Of choice

And how my son will have a voice


Sometimes I wonders if the world will eva change.

I hopes so, I hope it’s all rearranged.

The doors have somewhat opened,

Those doors will neva be shut again.

I’m a hoping

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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